Often I end up closing the list and immediately turning to self-soothing. And because there’s no way to know in advance if a task on the list will give me anxiety, this often results in my list being not just unusable but unreadable, preventing me from doing or even remembering the non-anxiety tasks on the same list.
I do that without even having a list. sometimes I have anxiety at looking at my email because I keep a bunch to remind me of things I have to do even emailing myself to make a task. so I guess I sorta do have a list.